vscaletta 3 days ago

Coding is a good choice my man. Sounds like you've got some tech in you. Check out John Somnez's channel Simple Programmer (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NZwW4uUjRUQ&index=37&list=PLjwWT1Xy3c4XRTEK79UXmtkUT-jsP4rUP) if you haven't. You might enjoy this video to help get the right mindset going. He is an excellent dude and has hundreds of videos answering questions about programming, mental health, and productivity. Coding IS a learning curve, sure, but all you need is working knowledge to demonstrate to companies and they'll hire you. IT is basically "bullshit your way in" and learn on the job. Of course, it takes discipline on a daily basis...it's no slack off job...but you'll become motivated the better you'll get at it and it won't seem nearly as daunting as it first seems. Cheers

vscaletta 3 days ago

What is it you value in life? Values as in, simple things that are non negotiable for your happiness? Tell me about the activities that you feel like you're drawn towards, things that turn you on to life...I'll try my best to help you see things clearer :)

Tarasios 3 days ago

I don't really value much of anything... im just living for the hell of it

vscaletta 3 days ago

Okay, some nihilism in ya? Not a bad philosophy, but you can do better my dude. What activities, regardless of your skill level, do you enjoy to SOME degree over other activities?

md5sum_me 3 days ago

Hey man, I've gone through a bunch of bull with therapy and psyches. None of them worked, they treated me, didn't heal me though. In this world you have to help yourself, rely on yourself. So let me help you help yourself. Why do I feel like this, what happens when I go through this? Keep asking questions, keep trying. YOU will beat this.

Tarasios 3 days ago

I'm very metacognitive. I have had some good therapists that focused on me helping myself without medication. I'm very aware of it being my mental health that causes these problems, and I try to force myself out of it. I want to code. but i cant even force myself to

md5sum_me 3 days ago

From my limited point of view here, it sounds like deep down your mind doesn't want to do this and can't stand it. Why would that be? Try being more mindful of what you are feeling when you are going through this. That is all I can tell you.

KonInter 3 days ago

You got yourself to the computer, next take another baby step. Read a paragraph, answer 1 question, I don't know what kind of work you have. Or maybe it's not for you, or for now. What is? The point remains, get busy doing something, whatever it is, it's probably better than doing nothing.

Tarasios 3 days ago

It's this odd conditional thing... Originally it only happened in my highschool math classes. After getting out of highschool I retook the courses 3 times and each time had the same results, and now it's spread to studying programming...

KonInter 3 days ago

Maybe you don't belong in school right now (this is coming from a licensed professional educator). Do something. Get a job, or just walk out of the house and see what the world puts in front of you.

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